Do you have balance?

By Cassie - Her blog is Live.Laugh.L0ve. You can learn more about her here. You can read all posts from Cassie here.

Raise your hand if you kick butt with having balance.

Now raise your hand if you are teetering on the edge with balance.

One last time, Raise your hand if you struggle to find balance. 

You will notice I didn't raise my hand to any of these. Why..Because balance is not my thing. It took me awhile to grasp that, to accept it and move on from it. I laugh as I think about when I "thought" i was kicking butt in having balance. My house was clean, I "thought" my kids were extremely happy, I "thought" my husband was extremely happy & I "thought" I was happy. It took a little while, but I found out I was completely wrong. 

Oh don't get me wrong. The house was clean, the kids were clean & fed, hubs appreciated everything, I was clean and sometimes fed. E-mails were answered, phone calls were made, text messages always went answered. I let people drop by all the time. I "thought" to myself, I got this. HA! I was wrong. I didn't have it, because yeah my house was clean and all that good stuff but there was not enough mommy & sons time, not enough hubby & wife time. There was no me time unless you counted the 15 minute shower. Yeah shower not bath.

There was a time I teetered on the edge of balance..telling myself if I could just stay here I would be good. Again, that just didn't happen & then I fell off and struggled to get control of balance again. That was even funnier to me. God does not have balance in his plan for me.

Once I accepted that. I could be thankful for it. No my house isn't always spotless, I am not always caught up on e-mails, blogs, text messages, etc. But I am happier. My kids get wayyyyy more mommy time, which means more activities, color time, play time & they are extremely happy. My husband gets more me, a more full focused me when we spend time together, insert happiness from him. 

I am a free spirit & apparently my free spirit and balance have nothing in common and I like it that way. I live life one minute at a time. Every part of my life. I take it one blog post at a time. One e-mail at a time. I stopped stressing when I accepted balance was not made for me. & I'm okay with that! I am better because of it.